Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
By: Brittany Eldridge
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
It's not just liking things in order
Sometimes it's being a hoarder
Childhood trauma
Chaos and drama
"Oh, I won't harm her"
The deception and lies
Conditional love and perfection
Anxiety cries
Defeated and depression
Trying to hide this impression
What the hell is this transgression
In a place where you feel broken and lost
Time, it will cost
You learn that love was based on how you perform
But really, God loved you through every storm
The fears and phobias flooded your mind
Your peace you can't find
Trying to escape the madness, trying to punch every demonic lie
Letting out a great big cry
You rely on the little things that calm your soul
Because your energy it stole
Laying in the grass, watching a candlelight flame, making shapes out of clouds, feeling the ground beneath your feet
While you're trying to fight, "fight/flight/fleet"
It's like running up the stairs in a hurry
Just to realize it was another trauma "story"
Some day through the journey, when each knot is unraveled and you're wondering "why"
You'll realize that although it was hard, it was worth the try.
Narrated Version: https://youtu.be/IhcTkoH7oKY